I think I’m finally starting to realize that I will never be able to look forward to buying a Valencia ticket again. I will never be able to see those guys together on a stage performing the songs that make me happier than any other thing on this planet, ever again. And that’s not sitting well with me. I’ve found other bands who give me similar feelings, but none of them come with the friendships or memories that Valencia once gave me. I guess it’s time to make new memories with old friends and begin finding a way to acquire new ones as well. But it’s not the same and it will never be the same. You came into my life for a reason and I am forever thankful, I jus wish you didn’t leave my life so soon. I feel like I didn’t have enough time to appreciate everything you gave me while you were still around. A year ago I was planning Zumiez week. I can’t believe in the last year so much has changed and you don’t even exist.
Let’s be honest, I would be in such a better place in life if I could just see you again. Or if I just knew that someday (soon) i would be able to see my favorite band play my favorite songs with the best friends a girl could ask for.
Valencia is the best b(r)and to ever exist in my life. I know that my many emotions have been expressed hundreds of times before, but it’s time to once again release them.
Over the past few weeks I’ve been pushing myself to allow the music that once was my life anthem to reenter my life. Since December 29th, I haven’t been able to listen to albums in full- actually I’ve only been able to listen to a handful of songs before turning it off. Recently I’ve been forcing myself to try and get through it but it’s tough. I have so many good memories with these songs that it’s hard for me to sit there and think about them without shedding a few tears. Now it’s to the point where the tears are produced mostly because “I’ll never be able to make another memory with this song/with my friends/I will NEVER get to see this song live again.” That’s the hardest part, knowing that all these songs that have filled my life for the last 6 years will never be played full band/live again.
Last Thursday, I had the great pleasure of seeing George, JD and Dan in one room together with Ryan also there. It tugged on every heartstring I have. Seeing the 4 of the interact together was honestly one of the most emotional moments of my life. I hadn’t seen JD in a year and it’d been a few months since seeing George as well so the reunion was very pleasant all around. But seeing them all together made me miss what was once present in all of our lives. I know that there’s many of you who are jealous of this situation, but don’t be. Seeing them all was exactly what I needed, but it put me back into a place that I fought so hard to get out of. I miss Valencia. There is absolutely no sugar coating it. I would cut off limbs to have this band play one more show together as an actual farewell show WITH JD in the picture.
Yesterday on my flight from Vegas to Chicago, something in me decided to put Valencia on shuffle. I went into it knowing it was a bad idea but didn’t realize until the 4th song in (The Space Between) what I was actually getting myself into. Following was Spinning Out x2. I can barely get through the beginning 30 seconds of the studio version without tears but hearing the acoustic version from the earthquake comp DIRECTLY after TSB & studio version? I’m not sure I can describe the actual feelings I had for those painful 12-ish minutes. But from there on, songs began playing that I could laugh through the tears about. I started remembering moments, like “darts go by” and how pissed we all were anytime Adrenaline would play as well as other things that most of you could not care less about (so I’ll save you all from that).
I guess what I’m trying to say is, it’s been 4 months (tomorrow) since the final show. Things are still as tough as ever, but this band will ALWAYS mean more to me than I will ever be able to put into words. Last week was my 6 year anniversary having them be apart of my life. Although “Valencia” is no longer a whole; the memories, the music, the friends and most importantly the guys are still all a huge part of my life. I just hope that everyone in the world is able to have a love for a band as strongly as I (as well as others) have for this band. Every day I miss you a little more than I did before.
I’m going through my phone right now and I found this. I can’t believe it’s been close to 4 months. It feels like just yesterday this all happened. I still don’t know how I managed this , but I got it. And I’m glad that I did. I miss you more and more each day. DEAR GOD WHY DID I POST THIS I DIDNT REALIZE HOW TERRIBLE I SANG THROUGH IT.
i feel bad for anybody that hasn’t found a band that’s made their heart beat faster and bring tears to their eyes and make them laugh and feel so many things all at once because it’s literally the best feeling ever and i hope everyone finds that one special band ok
valencia, the wonder years, new found glory
(Source: faggotunderthecorktree, via katiesaidso)
It’s weird here without you. There’s still something missing in life. There are times where I still feel like you’re around, but I know you’re not. It’s hard sometimes, really hard. Lately I’ve been thinking about past situations, memories, laughs. I’d give anything to create more with you. You’ll always hold such a huge place in my heart and life. I’ll be here when you’re ready to come back. Please come back.
(Source: 3elieve)
I miss you a little more than I should today.
(Source: -fluorescentenemies)
